Life has been so good to me; I'm immensely blessed. I live in a beautiful place, I've lived with two of my best friends, and I *LOVE* my job. I feel like what I'm going through now is the complete antithesis of my life in Dallas.
When I graduated college, I remember saying that I wanted to work and get a lot of life experience, and kinda let Higher Power guide me. That's exactly what happened - I took an ass-kicking for years at a job I was excellent at but was draining my soul, but in the process, I learned a lot about stress management, multitasking, and developed an excellent skill set.
It's amazing how life transpires and all these crazy things happen... and then it feels like everything turns up in the right place, as it should.
Sparky and I watched "P.S. I Love You", and the only time I cried was at the end during a very sappy, happy moment. I realized that I only cry now when I'm happy (for other people - fictional or not, for myself, for people I love, etc), and though I do get a bit upset/angry/afraid, it goes away after a bit.
Sometimes I think about what my life was like when I first started this LJ, and how frequently I would bitch about how things were. In all truth, I was convinced that I deserved it; I had created that reality.
After I took a HUGE bound and quit that job and changed my life, things did get immensely challenging, but the risk paid off. It paid off HUGE.
These things all happen in good time. A friend of mine in Dallas helped me realize that God is infinite and He does things on His time. It was frustrating to hear - after all, I was injured, broke, unemployed, living with the grief of losing someone I love, and going through SO much change - but it sunk in. Especially in hindsight. Of *course* in hindsight!
Today I got to spend the day with Sparky, who is absolutely one of my best friends (we also had a discussion regarding best friends - there isn't really a TOP DOG bestie the way we see it. We all have people we know, acquaintances, friends, and best friends. We don't have to choose!), and tomorrow I get to hang out with Pat and her family.
After I go on a date tomorrow morning, mwuahaha :) AND! Another one on Monday!
I think about the promise I made to myself, that even though I gained weight, I'm still the same person. I've earned my way through the blessings in my life, and I deserve something great.
Once I finally let that idea sink it, I let the universe know that I Am anything I want to be.
I Am sexy. I Am smart. I Am attracting the right things for me right now. I Am definitely the Queen of WIN :)
We all deserve to be happy. And though our personal happiness is relative, the idea that we are allowed to have it is, in my mind, Universal law.
Go, my awesome friends! Go, and find your happiness :)
I hope you have an amazing Memorial Day weekend, and see you on the next leg of this journey!